You will be loved, you will be hated.
Respect both in equal measure.
To be the figure of good in it’s entirety requires great personal sacrifice, and is truly not worth it. To suffer in the favour of others for a lifetime is a waste, though noble, it is the death of your character; A character of joys and flaws, for no man, however virtuous, is infallible.
A degree of self belief twined with self deprecation is the enduring failure that makes up any creative mind, but the truth of the matter is that you do not win, and should never play to do so.